Why do I enjoy what I enjoy?

Why do I like what I like? - The Sexual Perspective

Being restrained is freeing. Almost like a form of meditation, it has allowed my mind to focus on the singular thought of being restricted. As someone who is highly stressed, wanting to do things to perfection the way I want to - I found that being restrained and being told a hard "NO" without anything I can do about it to be a huge stress reliever, and a form of escape.

Restraining others is interesting too. I am straight, so I find a bound female figure to be elegant and emphasize certain aspects of their beauty. I also love the idea of giving others the thoughts and sensations I know one can feel when restrained.

Obviously the aspect of gaining and losing control is super empowering and attractive to me. While I am unlikely to ever enter a 24/7 relationship - whether as dom, sub, or switch, I do love the feeling of knowing I am in control, or completely out of control, during a 'session'.

The feelings of loving and caring, as well as freedom of 'being unable to anything' led me to explore ABDL topics. I found aspects of it to be warm and comforting, and adore the loving relationship that can be had between couples in the dynamic. I love both giving and receiving care. Another aspect of it all is that babies are inherently given many limitations. Particularly for adult babies, restraints can help cement the immersion of their regression.

Is everything sexual?

What started as something sexual has later evolved to something more "wholesome" so to speak. Even the act of restraining and/or being restrained evolved from something to jerk off to into something more than that.

I am someone with an overworked mind, one that doesn't stop moving and thinking. It has blessed me with the ability to 'think' better than most. I was that "smart kid" in class. However, the cost was an endless harassment on my mental, a near overwhelming level of stress and pressure. I set high expectations for myself, and while they have helped me achieve and become who I am today, they also taxed heavily on my mental health.

I am not alone in these feelings. Everyone has their own pressures and stress. And an escape is something most, if not all people, need in their lives. Many find it through video games, others through partying. Some find it through consumption of alcohol and/or drugs, others find it through spending time with family/friends, and a few find it in those couple hours a week they spend alone in the basement with their hobbies.

Bondage is that escape for me. A set period of time where there was nothing to focus on other than myself: my emotions, my thoughts, and my feelings. It is a time to relax, and not worry about the stresses of the real world.

When I had a SO, bondage was also a way of sharing love. A connection, beyond just something sexual, but rather one of care. Perhaps it's because I cherish that side of BDSM that I was intrigued by the idea of caregivers in the ABDL world.

My interests have continued to evolve over the years, and what started as something purely sexual goes beyond that for me now. I know that it means such for many others as well. My goal is that at least some of my stories touch on these "other aspects" of 'fetish' that are NOT sexual related, or at least not limited to their sexual-aspects. I enjoy erotic fiction that are more than just the kink/sex. There is far more beauty, and my ambitious goal is to at least grasp at it in a few of my stories.